then we finally got out of teh house after finally hitching a ride in her dad's cab to the fucking library.

only thing to do in -10 degree weather when you're flat broke.

then a 30 something dude checked us out.....scurry.

i found out that my moms gonna keep my allouance and just buy me the jedi audrey kitching shirt on monday.

hooray.

finally get that shit.

i wanna see cloverfeild.

not listening to kiki kannibal's most recent blog.

i dont care, it looks good.

should be.

I WANT NERD GLASSES.

like johnny knoxville style.

no where to get some?!

tell me.

and you'll be amazing.

thats it for noww.

TATA!!

i never have time to come on anymore 'cause i'm so damn busy all the time.

with school, out-of-school activities, chores and friends i just don't have time anymore.

i'll come on every ohh 5 months [hahaa that sounds weird.] to check my shit.

but other wise don't expect to see mehh on.

so yeah.

tata.

He's like classic emo kid.

the black and white plaid shirts, loosish jeans rolled up, black and white converse, a fftl tee under the plaid one and jet black hair.

he's DAMN cute in the face too :D

i've talked to him a few times and either he has a disease where he stares to much and stands on his tippietoes to see over a crowd of people to make eye contact with people or he "looks at me" if you know what i mean.

why else would he do it??

idk im probably just being mellodramatic or something.

well i have all As and Bs so far.whoop whoop!!!

all the concert band kids (including me) went to Edison to play at their 85th Homecoming game but i didn't go cause i was sick the day he gave out the slips and when i asked for one the next day he turned away and never gave me one.=/

it's okay though cause i had assloads of fun still (:

god is it wrong that even when im talking about other things i cant stop thinking about Jay??

I haven't felt like this in......carry the one....exactly A LONG TIME.haha.I mean i've crushed on people lately but not like this.idk.....

its making my fucking head hurt d00d!!!!

ughhhh *frustrated* i dont know what to do....

My grammas getting me this necklace from Urban Outfitters;;

its like Kiki Kannibal Koture Dimaonds ones but its gold and it only hangs by one end.its awesomeeeee.

and my mommys getting me a new zune *excited*

i needs to be xmas dude.

like baaaaaad.

i get $20 a month now which is better than $10 but still not very much.

I'll make due though ^.^

i found this cool clothing site with this sweater i reeeeally dig.haha dig.who says that anymore??hmmm....

we had our "CULT" tests today and yesterday and last friday i BOMBED my science test but i still have a B.It was on the parts of the Microscope and Biology/Cells and crap.the page i bombed was the one on the microscope stuff.after i finished i flipped to the page in the book about the parts and my eyes about fell outa my head when i saw the answers.in my head im like "NOOOOOO!!!!!" hahaha.

and now im thinking about Jay again.

ohwell.

So i went and checked the front and IT WAS LOCKED. I was locked out of my own freakin' house.So I had to break a screen and climb through the window and i tried to bend it back but my huge guns (kidding, kidding) went over board and i pushed the screen window into the storm window so hard it broke.

I thought to myself "OH shitshitshitshitshitshitshit" and said it out loud a few times tbh.I went into the living room and watched TRL and i heard the painter lady come around and she was Pi-issed about the window.The painter lady ended up being THE LANDLADY.So I broke a window for nothing.fukkin' retarded right??So she knocked on my door and this was the convorsation:

Melissa (land lady):"hiiiiiiiii, were youlocked ouut??"

Me:yeaaa =/

Melissa:Well I'm glad that was the case and nobody was trying to break in or anything.But uhmm, about the windowss...

Me:yea im really sorry about those

Melissa:it's okay i'll just have to talk to your mom about replacing them.

Me:okay *nods head*

Melissa:The really unfortunate part is is that i was here the whole time.

Me:oh, yea i know.I wish I would of known that in the first place.

Melissa:me too to be honest with ya.Well anyways I'll cal your mom and i'll talk to you later.

me:okay bye

Melissa:byebyeeee

Duders (my dog):*chases after melissa*

god it sucked.

So I called my mom and told her everything then she got the "very angry" message from melissa and called back pissed at me and grounded me but i get computer till tomorrow afternoon.thank god.But I've gotta work off the cash with chores *blehh*

So this morning I went for my bus and it never came so i called my stepdad and he brought me to school and i got an excused tardy.sounds okay right??well when i told my mom she was uber mad.I dont get why but she said "if you dont get on your bus in the morning one more time you're grounded for 3 weeks.Do I make myself clear?!" Wayyyyyyy overboard right?!I was just like "it's not MY fault my bus didnt come!!!!!" and shes like "DONT RAISE YOUR VOICE AT ME"

lyk DAYYYMMMM ya know??

puhhhh.its not just "one of those days" either.these kinds of days have gone on for about 2 weeks now.pure hell.

:(

I came out of Vreeland (science) and Owen's (math) room was right next door but the janitors were mopping up something so i had to go down a floor and go around =/

and when Divendra (short annoying arabian kid) came into class he kept saying "somebody threw up man" over and over again and he finally stopped.for then anyways.

Then I reminded Chris of this inside joke we had last year and he sat there laughing with his mouth wide open and crooked looking so i started cracking up. Nicole started laughing and when she laughes uber hard she looks possesed so that got me laughing even harder.Robert started singing this song where at some point it says "touch me" in a really high pitched note and by that time I couldnt stop laughing and when I finally did I went over to this table with supplies on it and chris was over there too and he just randomly shouts "WOOhoo!!" in a phycomaniac way and i started cracking up again and Aaron asked why he kept saying WOOhoo and chris said "i dunno...cause its funWOOhoo!!!!" and i was practicly on the floor with a laughing fit.Someone "bumped into chris" which caused him to booty bump Aaron so Aaron asked why he booty bumped him and he said "cause someone bumped into me." and walked away and i whispered to Aaron "yea, Chris is secretly gay" and chris came back over and got in my face and said "i HEARD that." (crazy old lady voice) so I started cracking up AGAIN.

then this bitchasshoe named Claire said "nicole, you better stop laughing or im gonna have to bring out my rope and drag you to the bus" and i bitched her out for some reason....cause shes annoying i guess.

then it was just nicoles demonic laugh that cracked me up after that.

after all that school was out (: 

Thank GOD Joey don't go there anymore.

Though this kid I knew in 5th grade named Andre does.

I beat him up with my exbestfriend at the park on year.....good times.

Ms.T=worst teacher ever.

There's just something about her that makes me go UGH!shut UP!!!!

Baldwin and Vreeland are cool...so is Owen.

She's obbsessed with Hello Kitty like me!!

I'm not aloooone!

yushhhh.

well ive got stuff id rather be doing than this.

I love spin.If nothing else, I'd be a journalist for Spin.Starting out with an internship of course.

I love the bands/artists they cover and their wit when they do.

I'd say i've got the wit power ^.^

would you??hahaha.

I never noticed how old the frontman of Death Cab For cutie was.in 1997 I believe it was he was 21.which makes him like 31.

Damn.I just think of him as the geeksquad looking guy from the I Will Follow You Into the Dark video.

Where he looks very cute may I add :)

Anybody check out the makeup Raquel Reed did for her MAC test??

Amazing right?!I wish she'd do my makeup.Maybe when I'm a supastahhh she will lolol.

kidding, kidding.

I may regret that comment in the future so I take it back haha.

I love that interview Gerard Way did with Spin in like '04 I think (the year he was dubbed sexiest man.yes FOB fans, dominating Pete.Sorry kids.) in Aussie.

It's really cute!!He just randomly lets the interviewer know his whereabouts.

ex.)"Now I'm on a ferry!!!!!"

I had many giggle fits reading it.

He also admitted that he feels stab wounds are sexy.

I read a random Spin about once a night.

I've memorzed certain parts like the first few paragraphs of the '05 (i believe) The Killers cover issue killers covering.

Not sure how, I just did.

Comedy Central showed Zoolander about 3 times in the past 2 days.

I've watched at least a portion of it each time.

Funny movie if I do say so myself.

I love the runway showdown.

'specially the part where they take their undies off in their pants (:

well im gonna go try and find some The Fratellis downloads.

read on mothatruckas, read on.

Also I'm looking for someone to do my stripes.In Minnesota.'cause I've been wanting stripes for a long time 'cause it totally gets you looks and they look awesome.Not 'cause they're a "trend" or whatever.

Kiki's newest journal // September 2nd 2007;;

mhmmm, I get that too.I once had a drummer of a death metal band all over me, I've had a guitarist of an emo band all over me and a vocalist of a screamo band pretty much stalk me.They ARE all the same."ohhhh, im diffrent I promise.I could never cheat on you BLAH BLAH BLAH." mhm, yea when zebras swim (: now THAT's synthetic sugar kiki haha. I already knew the drummer of the death metal band just wanted to party in my pants cause thats all he talked about to the bassist who was one of my good friends. I confronted him about it and all he says is "baby, i want you for love too.not just sex.You should know that." I just laughed and never talked to him again.

Guys are losers.except for a very select few that have a head on their shoulders.

So I was thinking; who started the scene names trend in the 1st place??

Was it Kiki Kannibal??

or did some kid with big hair listening to his ipod and discover that ol' Rob Zombie song he never listens to anymore and think 'hey....thats fuckin' hardcore man."

I never really thought about it...but scene names are pretty lame.

For example.

Who would wanna be known as "SarahSAVAGE"??

It's lame in the 1st place but really.

this is pretty much 'scene names for dummies:

______________________

your name here

______________________

Adjective here (gore use suggested)

Ya know what I mean??

I mean Kiki's still my idol and all but come on.

get real, is that really cool??

Well I guess if you end up famous and you like your scene name and you wish to be known by it, fine by me.

Also I was thinking about what lifes gonna be like when im not in highschool

anymore.

&& i'm living in my own house, my own car, my own job and my own friends.

Do I really wanna work in an office and look like everybody else and wear stiffler suits everyday??

I think not.

So I've decided I'm gonna live life to the fullest.

If I'm at the mall and I see a cute boy, I'm gonna walk up and saysomething like "hey, cutieface".

hahaha, but I'm also gonna go to school to be a hairdresser and do like rockstar hair for the rest of my life.

I'm gonna party, hang with my friends, and god dammit im gonna be diffrent.

okay I feel much better now.(:

I watched Kiki's ex boyfriend video earlier and she's SO right.

you've gotta pick the boy, don't let the boy pick you.

If some boy walks up to you at a party and starts hitting on you just turn your back and talk to your friends.

Don't just "be nice" 'cause he'll tell you what you wanna hear so you fall in love with him and he'll lead you on till he gets what he wants.

be it sex, money, fame, bragging rights, whatever.

Then he'll drop you like your hot haha.

He got what he wanted and he doesnt need you anymore.

just forget about him, move on, and he'll come running back.

Ignore him, say you dont need him and youve got a life without him and he'll down on himself for the rest of his life.

listen to kiki people.

she's got brains.

even though im not friends with her anymore she totally makes me laugh lol.